Dear APOCALYPSE #14

 I can't seem to focus on the things that need my attention.

My brain is fixated on trying to find the latest update on COVID-19 and all of the predictions of what's to come for the US. It's all I see online and the local television stations are interrupted with press conferences that I can't seem to not watch.

I check the DOH website everyday at 2PM to see the latest numbers and breakdown across counties in Ohio.

It reminds me of my behavior when 911 happened and I was glued to the coverage for weeks. Or, in 2003, when they televised the Iraq War, I didn't sleep for more than an hour or two at a time and I watched CNN around the clock.

What is wrong with me? This is not healthy.

I like to think that if I know all of the facts then I will be able to help when someone may need it. But, the truth is, it's paralyzing me.

(written March 18th 2020)